Well, a lot has happened since the the start of school...
A sudden change from a good fren...seriously i still cant comprehend the reason why...if anyone knows please fill me in...if i'm in the wrong, I'll sincerely apologise to my fren. This issue had bugged me and is still...everytime i think about it, it fills my heart with sadness and fear. What if such a thing were to happen to my other frens? i think i'll breakdown. HAIZ....
INSECURITYThats really scary...this had always bugged me since young. A fren of mine who's a psychologist said that if i continue to be sooo affected by things, i'll be down with depression sooner or later.
I GUESS SO...
i don't really have memories of my past. my brain works in a funny way i guess, it autodeletes every once in a while.. maybe thats good, so i wont be dominated by teh past. A habit of living in the past... Its just that i kinda really get affected by things easily...better brighten up...lols...thanks for the new name Eleanor--Sunshine...better live up to it...hahas...
It still saddens me i guess..hahs...imagine having to see that fren everyday...and the presence of the fren is really quite overwhelming...I get a mixture of feelings everytime...sadness, anger, confusion, fear. I realy want to talk to her again, have fun with her again, hear her play the piano again for me...... those were fond memories..yet they torture me now. hahas...
how things can change due to a change in the point of view...guess everything's all in the head. think +ve Jm think +ve...Well, since it takes two hands to clap, i guess its up to the other party to reciprocate...just hope that she's happy with her choice...hope that any misunderstandings etc will clear soon...
Once again...as another saying goes
"If you keep grasping to the past, you'll have no hands to embrace the future..."
hahas...for this, i must really thank my "new" frens...
Chew Yin(boss..she's THeZZ BOZZ)
Sok Hui(other boss(kawaii one))
Jamie(secretary..beware of the other side.. XD)
Anglia( main staff and DOMO!!!)
Jonathan(main staff and cleaner bully argh!)
Eleanor(Main staff and raindroppppp =D)
Alice(yet another main staff. beware of the other side too... =X jkjk)
thanks for recruiting a cleaner...i'll use the best cleaning agents available in the market...i even have secret cleaning recipes..Muahahaahs...*evil grin* Really thank you all... =D these have been such happy times...looking forward to more of them..hahs... =D
Other frens i must thank include
A-MAN---DA~ lols jkjk always enjoy being with ya...a real fine fren to be with too =D
Wan Lan and
Shu Hua-- the almost twins hahas...real fun ppl..veh fashionable too seh...
Nana--Thanks for being there my fren, i'll always be here for ya too =D afterall, i'm just a call away...
Xiao Tian and
gang--Real fun with ya guys... =D
My frens outside...hahas..wad can i say~ hahas...
Yolanda-- For the fun times we had have... for letting learn more about others and myself...for teaching me things about life. Hope for happier and better times ahead...
I guess with this, I would like to start a new chapter of my life...i've learnt some stuff...i'll continue learning, i might fall, but i'll learn to pick myself up...Wanna move forward in life with all my Frens... Cheers to all!!! For More Happy and Fun Times Ahead!!!!!! =D All the best to life!