Boringggg........

simply bored... been watching myth busters... damn interesting... documentaries rock~

sigh.

I guess we're just people from very different worlds...
i thought that i understood you..
but it seems that i was just being very naive...

I dont mean to disagree with your point of views and what you like or dislike, but its just that well... i'm taught to and am to walk another path... believe and think in a very different way... and this contridicts my habitual character... yet to have a control over it i guess...

Sometimes it makes me feel that its really hard for people to get along with me...feel so helpless...who to understand my reasons and embrace them fully?

i hope that you are as happy as when you are with other buddies, when your with me...

I seriously wonder if you talk about me infront of others like how happily you talk to me about your other frens...lols... so kaypo of me...

Lols.. I think i'm just being plain selfish and self centered...hahs... well...its not to a specific someone but rather some people... but like sth that i've been emoing about and wondering... well...lols... muz over come this weakness...please pass quickly emophase...maybe i'm just simply thinking too much...

Nahhh

Anglia, seriouslt i think it'll take me a million years to do my own layout... real lazy and have simply no idea... grabbed this from the net...

lalala... some wicked video

This guys dances like those jap robots.. and further more he has a physical disability.. so in a way a lil inspiraing...




This guy is like scary... like an alien man... but its really cool... please ignore the front part, the words...

Diesssss slacking intensely.... watching so much videos.... =XXXXX

Thank you Panda...

A fren came over to my house yesterday... and was willing to listen to me well, crap and well pour sorrow...

Seriously i must admit that i must have exggerated things... you know the situation when you've been opressed in terms of freedom of expression for such a long time, when you finally can, one tends to exggerate things i guess... so actually things not that bad lah... your horrified expressions were quite funny too.. XD

well, seriously nothing serious i realised... perhaps i was in a way sick of being unable to express my thoughts feelings to my family, and that unhappiness kind of you know evolved and bla bla... hahas.. to justify myself i guess... =P tsk tsk... excuses...

Anyways thank you fren... for having listened and well, showed positive response =P felt as ease... maybe all i really needed was just simply for a fren whom i could freely express my thoughts without the fear of being talked back like what my mom always do.... its so tiring and upsetting... makes one feel so unaccepted...when its nothing serious that i'm saying... =(((

" Master Wu Gui was right, you are the dragon warrior, who has brought peace to the village and to me..." Thank you panda... anyways my fren looks a lil like Panda~~.... EEk... dun strangle me pls.... hahahs....

Shopping 2 Bugis... more like window shopping...

Lalala...

Ele and moi...I look sweet rite?

SH and Alice

CY SH Alice

Pressies from Ele

At the Arcade!..dun let my mom know... =P

The three cam whores... tsk tsk tsk...

SAF yatch club~

Lalala... went the this place with my mom on thursday.. veh veh nice~ lovely.. hahs let the pics do the talkin~

Where the boats are kept on land...


interior

seaside cafe~

swimming pool

swimming pool overlooking the sea~~

jetty




an interesting looking boat...
in the distance~



wonderful seabreeze.. nice place... hope to go there again and enjoy facilities.... went there to do work so couldn play.. haiz..

sth funny...

The Rubik's cereal... lolx...so dottys...

Finally the pics from the Kip outing~

Yes! the long awaited pics from Cindy are finally here... hahas... =D

The Panel of judges... -_-

Rebecca

Wee Chai

Jen ping
Lopez

Sok Hui

Alice

Amanda

and moi..

Lalala.. and the group pics.. =D

0102panels are all A2... and ours? All A1.... dots rite...nvm... still had fun...=)

The Mundane side of me...passing emophase...

A tad bit random.

If i were to tell you that the answers to the questions that u jokingly asked is yes?
Would u believe me?
would you be afraid of me?
would u distance yourself?

Hahahas...i bet you would...i bet you would...
No one would accept i bet...Confused emotions...distorted thoughts...an "imperfect" side of me.

no one wants to see that, so this happy side you see. Its not a mask as many people might phrase, this happy side is true, as much as the other side too...

Should not be shown
Cannot be shown
Yet dying to be shown...

Nasty thoughts a plenty... i have to pacify them... I do not want to be conquered by them... I should choose my fate.

Yet.

Its tough.

Who can truly understand...

Who can truly accept me?
Every single part of me...100% of me. not only the part i show.

Hidden emotions... forbidden thoughts... all buried deep. Cannot be shown. yet dying to be.

I'm suffocating. seriously I am. The thoughts choking me.

No. I have to continue to smile, be the "ideal" image of JM.

Who can I confide in? Ha. no one. no one. The ugly side can never be shown. never be told.
I'm tired. So very tired. I feel so alone. Yet i know this is the best way. There is no doubts about it. Sigh.

Habitual. so hard to get rid.



Ripples upon the water. Who to calm my lake.


You. threw a pebble into the lake. Created a ripple that disrupted the still surface of the lake.
The ripple, trembled my mind. disrupted my mindstream.

Instead of dying off before hitting the edges, it bounced back, creating yet even more ripples.

The effect continues to the extent that earth may no longer hold the lake.

I dont know how much longer i can keep things together... for the ripples are strong.

Hahas... maybe i should build some breakwaters(geog). strengthen the shore.And just simply wait.

Yes. Jm. be calm. relax. this is merely temporal. it will pass. Nothing's permenent.

Yes. relax. just give it time. the lake will be peacful once more. Let the dirt just settle.
But the dirt's still in there.

HOW.

Hahs.... guess i'll have to learn to live with it till i'm a better cleaner... =) I should use a better cleaning solution. maybe i'm just not adding enough.

Who to clean it? No one but myself. *starts scrubbing away...*

NeW Blogskinn~

Arigato Anglia for the new blog skin... tsk tsk.. openly hinting i should be more femine eh? lols.. anyways real thanks... like it veh much.. =DDD

Cool Video

Wicked Video of an animation.. this is actually a promotion video for a Condo(i think) really cool effects etc... cute too... hahas.. my dream to be able to do such things and eventually work in such a firm...but its in London.. haiz........soo cool..... =DDD lalala...

Guess WHat??

Wellll....

Members from Kip McGrath Education Centres, Mr Sinna and the three Franchise Partners, Mr Gan, Mrs Louisa Wee, Mrs. Azizi have discussed and reviewed your designs and their comments as stated below.

"As each design has its own unique elements, they have unanimously selected two top winners instead of one ie. Mr Lopez Lum and Ms. Ye Jiamin. Our congratulations to the winners!


O_OOOOOooooooo......................... exact text from the email....Cindy's so Dramatic....lolx XD seriously i have no idea why...cos its -_- design...there will another round of judging i feel... well.. Lopez's will be built i feel if they do build it.. cos the ideas great! well.. Pretty happy... liked the renders i did... will have to work much harder... so many things to dooo.... =XXXX

Btw, the prize is only popular vouchers....... -_-... well, can grab some books i guess.. hahas...

little ponderings...

Went over man's house for a short short while with my laptop to see if her internet connection had problems well, the conclusion was the wireless problem... i couldnt connect to it too... went home after that... then suddenly it got me thinking... she moved in when she was primary 2 around the same time as me, lives just a street away. Maybe we've been crossing paths for 10 over years and never knew each other. Its not like 1 or 2 years but 10 years in teh same area... hahas... well... just some random thoughts i guess... ...

well, if your wondering what i have been doing at the workshop, well, pics of my panels and stuff... dun puke hoh~... not really good, but i really tried for the rendering but the sofeware had problems so ya.. slowed down much of the production time... =((( full view pls~

bleedin knee

After KMG presentation we got kinda bored and went walk walk at -___- ikea.. hahahahs... the one at queensway... -_-.. we were like real tired and every section we would just sit or lie down... had ikea ice cream courtesy of Amanda.. thanks man~ =D afterthat Alice came over to my house to cycle... in the end i had a "bad" fall and well.. was bleeding and everything lah... sigh... so now i'm chair ridden and all my plans to exercise for this hols is like -_-... sien... well.. i know this is sick, but pics of my wound... the trickle is the fluid flowing from the wound... still flowing after a day... -_- knee.. dear knee... heallll... sorry alice, couldn show u the swing in the end.. haiz..

Summary of KMG workshop~~ =D

=DDDDD VEH FUN~ Eventhough we had late nights and burnt weekends, we were very happy in teh workshop...

First day...

Site analysis and met the clients... measured the site and had fun at lunch at tampines mall...Swensons's treat originally but didn feel good about letting Cindy spend so much so we just ate FC then paid individually... went back to school in the afternoon for lecture and started with the production...

Day 2...

wow! breakfast from Cindy~ Mr Bean cookie stuff =D work work work... we sat in a fun manner, out side with all the tables to us! worked fun together and it was really enjoyable with my good buddies Amanda Alice Sok Hui (all 3 are Cancereans lols, such conicidence)...=D and the fun people from 0102 Lopez Wee Chai Jenping and Rebecca =D made good frens... music blastin and the whole studio was ours!! hahas...




Day 3...

Breakfast of Donuts from FC3 hahs... contined to do work...Cindy came down now and then to check upon up and help us through our hopelessy -_- designs... hahas...Had fun playing in the studio, teasing each other.. felt really bonded..Cindy was really cute =D the way she teased Alice... "Alice, i want 6 models from u" "see? now increase to 8" by the end of the workshop the number actually went up to 12 hahahsh... how naughty was Alice man.. hahs...


Day 4...

Doriyaki~ YUM...we learnt some hand rendering today and Cindy was so nice to let us play with her huge! collection of Copic markers colour pencils etc... drools.. it was like wow... we saw works of Cindy, she was stingy, only showed 1 or 2 hahs.. but i was like O_O wow.. hahs... afternoon the guys screened a Thai horror movie.. -_-.. hahs.. scary... and yea, music after that... work work~




Day 5...

Yum... polar cakes =D work work as usual.... the laughter etc =D we also set up a mini library within the studio itself... it was cool as it realy promoted the idea of looking through books etc... =D



Day 6 and 7

Did work with Alice... hahs.. nearly puked blooddd(nahhhs... jokin jokin) was fun though.. never been able to do work with such concentration and at such long span.. i think this workshop has worked wonders =DDD

Day 8

Mooncake breakfast! hahas.. Cindy was so sweet to have gotten Veggie mooncake for me =DD Thanks so much Cindy.. very sweet of you... Continued work in a mad rush for the panels had to be printed tml and a presentation to Cindy was to be at 3 in school... ya, so work work... skyped with Alice and smsed Amanda and Msned Sok Hui... encouraged each other to work through the night...


Day 9

Mad rush continues... Cindy was as usual very nice and postponed the submission till 4pm instead... but in the end... -_- we only left the printing shops at 4pm.... so she actually suggested that she come down to Dhoby Gaut instead... soooo nice... had lunch at Mos at 4.30 -_-... met Cindy at Mac in PS and u know what?! we had to present to her at MAC!! so 1 by one we held our panels and sat down presenting to her... so funny but it felt really nice... with her and everyone, i never felt design lessons this way... felt really good... she is very encouraging too.... after that, went walk walk with Alice and Amanda... those 2 as usual, squabbling away... me keeping out of the way incase i every get hit! =P jkjk went home and did some modifications that Cindy asked for and yea, slept man~...too lazy to think of the script...


Day 10... last day.. ;_; sobsss...

Morning went all the way to Clarke Quay to present to 5 judges... OMY...all 8 met up and took quite a while to find the Ulu building -_- KMG like so budget lah... ahahahs.... knew it from the brief, but didn know its sooo budget... hahs... the place looked like a abandoned building from the back... hahs.... Cindy knew that we'd be late so she actually gave us an earlier timing... shucks, know us so well.. hahs... went to Liang Court mac for breakfast before going for the presentation.. 1by 1 we went up and presentated... drew lots the previous day and i was the 4th hahs... Lopez's presentation was really good... 0102's works were really O_O wow.... haiz.. much to brush up... =( results will only be out next week or so... well, keep our fingers crossed.. hahhs... took group photos.. will post pics next time...

After that, we went to Central for lunch...at a Japanese restraunt... whoa~.. cool.. first time eating real jap food... hahs..


Kyomomoyama... hahas.. this is the yasai tempura? ? i dk man.. its yasai sth... which mean ye cai, wild vegetables sth... yummy =D but ex of course....$6 hahas.. i think i choose the cheapest on the menu.. well, its the only thing on the menu i can take ~ hahs.. nevertheless, its yummy...Had a fun time there... esp with Cindy too.. hahs.. we took pics, even a video~ =D will post them up next time... will post them here so look at this post again kk?


The crazy bill.. hahs... Cindy was so nice to us, so we decided to give her a treat instead! and shared the bill amongst the 8 of us... =D i hope she's touched.. hahs... will post the pics soon.. once we get them from Cindy~... was a fun workshop... really loved everything... everythng =D lols.. at the end there was even a evaluation form about the workshop.. i guess most of us choose strongly agree for almost everything man.. =D Hope this bond with everyone and Cindy continues and grows stronger.. =D

well, missed my budds from HMers sad couldn all 8 enter =( but nvm.. school reopening soon... will see and be with them soon =D kinda dreading school cos it means ITP soon... so unprepared... summore u guys know that i lost like everything loh.... so... -__-.... ... have to start from scratch this hols? OMY lah... -_-... siannnnn.... but hope all goes well.. add oil JM!!! will post the pics soon... =D