..Psychedelic..

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
Its hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you cant take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
Youre caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you cant face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump Ill break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
Youre not alone

And there has always been heartache and pain
And when its over youll breathe again
Youll breath again
.
.

Looking for an outstretched hand... hand of a friend... to pull me up..
I can be that hand of yours... will yours be mine?

HAND PAINNNN

ARGH... Dont ask me about work. It sucks....argh... can you imagine cleaning tiles with thinner almost everyday?? I think seriously my life will shorten if i continue to do this... due to bad air quality... oh goodness lah. my nails and fingers are all aching terribly... imagine scraping of double sided tape for like hours?! it sucks man... its annoying how others are doing up mood boards, I'm like tearing old mood boards, removing the tiles and laminates from old boards. ARGH. Imagine using a screw driver to ply up those tiles and stuff stuck firmly to the board. ARGH. Imagine seeing the same supplier three times and him seeing you doing the same thing and he even asked you "huh? still doing this?" T_T... argh....

lala

It has been so long since I last cycled round my estate... lols.. i could still remember a number of mths back I was so shocked to see the HUGE seagate building... It felt as though the building just fell from the sky... T_T... I totally didn witness the building of it... I guess.. its just THAT long since i last explored... lols.. anyways.. took some pics... The wide open fields are simply just lovely... and there are so little people here.... it just feels wonderful to simply sit by the fields and watch the birds and feel the breeze. and watch the kids fly kites.... =) lols.. isn admiralty nice?

After so long.. i still cant forget...

Earth Hour. please support. help save the world.

Finally.

Yes people. I'm finally back. I really meant to blog these few days and i've always been thinking of things to write in the office.. to pen down my thoughts... but well.. oh well...shrugs... guess its gonna be a long post...

1. Recently i checked my phone and realised that the most popular song on my playlist is still... none other then... Pokerface! lols... Anglia.. you really got it right.. lols... I was really amused.. i thought it was going to be Everybody knows by John Legend... Its a really nice song.. kinda soulful and meaningful.. kinda link to my personal feelings and experiences..

And I hope one day you'll see nobody has it easy,
.
.

'Cause everybody knows, that nobody really knows
How to make it work, or how to ease the hurt
We've heard it all before, that everybody knows
.
.
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows.'

Everytime I hear that line. So many memories flood my mind.

So many regrets.
So many apologies that I wish to say.
To so many people.

How I wish they could have given me an extra chance.
I know I'm really not good enough a person to be a friend i guess.

But i'm human afterall.
sighs.

all those past memories and worries are really suffocating.

How to make it right, I wish we gave it one more try
One more try
One more try
'Cause everybody knows, but nobody really knows


sigh.

I wish to walk out of this past shadow. this fear. this insecurity.

Sometimes when you feel that the puzzle is finally complete, you're so afraid that a piece would become fall off and eventually lead to more pieces falling and eventually destroying the picture.

I'm so sorry.
I need TONS of resurances.
I lack so much confidence.

yet.

at the same time i'm such a egoistic person.

Sometimes I really hate myself.

OMG.
someone please help me.
.

WHATEVER.

I should just stop listening to emo songs. I should put the past behind.

Its hard. Damn hard to when all those past feelings keep taunting you.

Making you paranoid.

Worrying that the past would repeat.

"when its good, its so good
till it goes bad.
Then you try to find the you that you once had." -sober, pink


Sigh.
enough ranting.

.. I shall start thinking more positively. =) cos there ain't no other way. it makes you stronger anyways. Guess part of life is to meet with such setbacks and well.. hopefully grow from them...

yet.
*emo yet again*

whatever emo. argh. ENOUGH. -.-.. must be the rainy weather. -.-.

yes yes. on a happier note... I pray that my current life stays good. must count my blessings and be grateful indeed. This year had the Best Birthday yet... Great Family.. Lovely Friends<3 head ="]" size="2">BTW.. sth super random. I realised that I prefer to use =] instead of :) which my fren uses.. eventhough :) looks cuter.. I think its cos I have bigger eyes... =]. I think my fren will scold WT* if she sees this... HAHAs.. -.-... but sounds reasonable rite... WT*. I can so imagine her doing that now...


ANYWAYS... Thanks to my Bro and Amanda and Sharon for all those smses that keep me going during ITP.. yes please.. keep them coming... entertain me at work... -.-... or i might really go insane... cant talk to anyone also.. Lopez sits all the way at the other side of the room.. so I'm all alone k... sighs... and also thanks to my Gossip fren.. whom I always call -.-.. cant write her name.. later she kill me... -.-.. gosh. I developed a bad habit of gossiping le.. DIE.. =x.. eh.. we should start talking more intelligent stuff... LOL!..JKJKJK!!! *prays she doesn get mad or emo*=X, thanks to Nana for the MSN talks (wishes happy birthday yet again~~) and yes thanks to the HM gang for the friday meet ups... makes me look forward to everyweek ending =D... sth to look forward to everyweek =DDD

Anyways.. hopes ITP gets better and better as the days or weeks pass by... for everyone of course... ppl who has tons of stuff get a easier life.. ppl nothing to do to get work to do...

and yes! Must do Dalian shopping soon gals! Its coming... .. . .. . . =D

btw, I went to watch my fren's piano concert... he's damn good i tell you.. lols.. he played several duets.. this is my favourite.. the sudden encore... LOL.. guess what the tune is =P.. I was really amused... anyways.. Jia you ppl =D 4 more weeks to go!!! ARGH. I need to exercise... anyone for a game of badminton???? I'm serious....

OH NO!

I just got to know from Sok Hui that my blog skin is off! omg.. apprently from firefox it looks fine! it doesn seem to work in windows explorer... SO SAD... RUIN MYT EFFORTS TO FIND A BEAUTIFUL PIC... ---> the original above.... so please view my blog in firefox!

Its been so long...

LOL.. been busy with ITP... and lols.. also busy with like tons of gathering... lols.. once again I would like to Thank everyone who has celebrated my birthday with me.. thanks so much for the gifts too =D love them lots <3 and of course <3 the ppl of course.. hahs.. anyways.. some simple updates...

Firstly, I kinda like the enviroment of my work place.. its feels like a merge of Margaret drive and Holland V.. even Alice felt so when she saw my pics.. LOL.. hahs.. seriously it does.. nvm.. one of the things I really like to do is to go early and explore teh place...

It located in a rather perculiar place, right smack in the middle of two interesting places... china town and raffles place.. one side is all those Chinatown shophouses then the other side you suddenly see all those towering buildings. hahs. so interesting... then the mood of the area is a bit like Holland V with all those pubs and stuff... lols... dont ask me about work... I 'm just really upset that I know that i wont learn much from this firm.. they love to ectract from catalogs and do erm... not really creative projects.. all aunties also. so well.. idk man... guess i hope to just simply get over it... well.. as my fren says.. Make the best of the situation... =)

some piccys from the area...

another 39A... if you cover the bridge..hahs

holland V?

Tango!

the Chinatown side

entrance area..


the reception area

the draftsmen area...

my window view... and the "tomb" i was talking about..

hmm...

lols.. my fren painted her room as the De stijl painting.. LOL.. i was so amused.. hahs... oh my.. i never knew how powerful noise cancelling ear pieces are until i took them today when the fan was "blowing very loudly"... i was shocked.. -.-.. i couldn hear the fan at all until i took off the ear phones... sighs... i can sense my fren's aura.. i guess she's really pissed with work.. oh my... >_<.. jia you jia you!!!!!!!!!!! >_< i sould have really gone to ask the lady for her golden dust... so sorryyyy.. omgomg... -_-..

dinnerr...